To Blog, or Not To Blog....

I have kept a journal, ever since I saw the tv movie "Go Ask Alice" in 1971 ( I believe). My sister gave me my first diary on Christmas Day. I diligently started it on New Year's Day. I slept with it under my pillow.
I wrote in my diary ( which became a journal when I entered college), every day for almost 35 years.
My diary/journal got me through puberty, lost loves (damn that Shawn Casey for not noticing me), anorexia, my first sexual experience, rape, wronged friendships, etc.
After I had our first-born, Caitlin, I decided to journal her growth. I new at birth she would require extra care. I wanted to document her screams, sleepless nights, etc.
I was so happy I did this after she was diagnosed. It has been my savior on nights I did not know if I was doing the correct thing with her. I documented all her GFCF, nutrients, enemas (which I still cry about), doctors appointments, etc.
We stopped all of these when Caitlin turned 4, and she dumped the concoction I gave her to drink, down the sink.... It was done for all of us.
As our family grew, so did my journals.
I joined a local Support Group for autism. Unfortunately, they did not want to hear my side of the story. I was negated and bullied for my anti-biomedical beliefs.
Funny thing, many of these parent's emailed me off-list. They too were disillusioned, but did not want to speak up for fear of being bullied.
I don't have a problem with bullies. I think bullies are cowards.
None of my children are bullied, or have become that....that is one of our greatest accomplishments in their lives.

Then one day, I went looking for a site on the computer who held our beliefs on what autism is and what autism can be.
I found a huge pot of gold at the end of my rainbow...I found Soapbox Mom's blog.
I commented on her blog, and she responded. Wow.......
She told me there were many out there like us. She gave me sites to go to, blogs to read, etc. I found a safe place for my children and my family to go to and not be BULLIED.

I then decided, I could also blog. I can write well, in my jaded mind.
I always wanted to write a book, I am just a bit too lazy.
I decided my blog would be about my family and my feelings about autism and all the crazy things people do to cure their children.
Yes, it makes me angry, but I am ALLOWED my feelings. I cry when I read about all the things people put their children through, for the sake of "curing" them. You "cure" meat, not children.
I get angry when I read how a mom is going to scope her NT child, because she has a stomach ache. I want to go and rescue that little girl. I want to tell the mother that PERFECT does not exist.
That is what I CAN and WILL write about on MY blog....
Don't like it, Don't read it......